when life is about moving on

i don't know why i'm feeling so sad right now. it's maybe because i'm in a new town, friend-less and haven't gone to school yet. and in my previous town, i had lots of friends.

so these friends, they've gone to school, and they are no longer with me. i miss going to the same school as vivi, peppi, ami, dea, feli and practically everyone in my class.

yesterday i was feeling so damn left out, and for a few days i've been listening to sad songs. and everytime i feel like crying sooo bad. everyone else is already busy (and they're far away damn singapore hahah), while i had nothing to do, so i kinda need them, and usually i can have fun with them when i'm bored. but now, i can't do it anymore, everyone is already moving on with their life, they already have a new life, and new friends, and new school and everything. their school ain't mine anymore, and they have new things that made them busy.

sure they are still my friends, sure they are still in touch with me, but not as intense or as much as before, like dityo, he always run out of phone balance, and he is busy, and he got new friends and crush and everything, i just missed the way he's always with me everytime i needed him, like texting all day, and i miss him sharing about his life and mocking me and annoy me and stuffs. indiwara, she can't be online as often as the holidays, she is always the one that makes me laugh in every situations, we always chat and she always cheer me up. ami, now she can't be as cheery as before, she's often sad, sure she's still funny and fun, but i hate to see her sad, she's still adjusting to her new school and she's kinda busy everyday with homework and things.amadea, i kinda missed her, i went to the same school as her for 6 years, and different school for another 6 years, and she seldom reply my wall or reply my texts, but i know deep down that she is still my bestfriend. vivi and feli, their school was the number one school in jakarta, it's full of brainy people, and now they live in an apartment, and it's far away, vivi was recently sad but she moved on and she got used to her new school, and feli's easy going i'm sure she'll make it through.

oh my God, i didn't realize i wrote that much, well, if i'm going to keep writing about the others, it's gonna be a long post, and you're gonna die bored out of it hahahah. well writing this post, i only want to let out what's bothering me. and now it feels kinda good that i wrote it.

well, maybe, i shall move on with my life to, like everyone else. just enjoy every moment of it, and try to let go of the old friends as they have new lifes too. by "letting go" i didn't mean forgetting, but you know, just accept the fact that they have other friends and business too, but still be in touch with them. well i only wish the best for my bestfriends, and i hate to see them sad (ehem, ami heehee). and i want them to be happy, okay guys? :)